I remember how he stared at me
It was calm and warm..
I never expected something from him
But when he said he loved me,
There was nothing to ignored,
There was nothing to denied,
Hey Rey?!
You opened up my mind,
You made me believed….
Love isn’t for a fool…
Love isn’t for a loser…
Love is wonderful,
Love can built a bridge for a dreamer…
Hey Rey?!
Your laughed make me happier,
Your smiled make me crazier…
“ You are the one that could blow my mind,
i can’t stand on the ground
when i see you smiled….”
that is what Rey said…
# oh no no no…
Rey you drifted my mind away,
when you putted your arms on me
Rey you wipped my tears
And burried all my sadness
You were mine
You were my gorgeous Rey…
You are everything to me
You were my Rey
*back to # 1x
You it’s only you..
Now till the end
You, forever is you
The one till the end…
Thursday, 12 May 2011
my Diary
May, 3rd 2011
Dear Diary
My middle finger, no body’s gonna put a ring on it. These aren’t a depressing words i expressed. Each time i look at my self in the mirror and i realized no one gonna love you nor like you! You should consider yourself for stop dying and begging for a fairytale that ain’t gonna happen in your life, because there’s no way to make it.
I should just open my eyes and face the truth. If i would someday and if my destiny was wroten to be single forever, i’ll take it because i know perhaps it is a good way or even a better way to enjoy and appriciate my life.
Some people in the out side might say “everyone have their own soulmates, the one that you could share everything with.” They’re right! Really. But don’t forget to remember, life is not exactlyvin our hands. Who the H-E-L-L knows what will happen to you and your “soulmate” a second after you have each other?
Just don’t and never be influence with my blog, because you and i absolutely have different life, thought, feelings and we also have different way to express our passion. Even if we have “almost” same love story, i mean if we’re single we both have different reason.
My mom told me “don’t be rush with things that you doing now, just let it flow and it will find a place where it should be. But also don’t forget to watched it out and sometime you may control it, when things start go out of track.” Those words are too much and may be too heavy, if we listened or read it for the first time. Just believe me you’ll understand with time. That’s true!
Probably love isn’t coming yet in my life because i’m still too young for understand what it is and still too young for feel it. An old song that still catchy in my ears is “First Love” by Nikka Costa, hahah yeah that’s kinda ridiculous because in above i wrote i won’t have a special ring on my middle finger.
Yeah it is, but it wasn’t mean that i never or i couldn’t falling in love right? I had it, i fell twice and the last, it really and apparently enough for break and torn my heart into pieces. Hahahah God bless me because it only and still only happened twice. So far, i could handle it.
I’m going to tell you how stupid i was! I fell with someone who already has a relationship with someone else. Thanks a lot the pain i felt was only goes along 6 months. I felt sorry about his girlfriend, instead i decided to stay away from their life, keep up everything that happened between me and him along 6 months, and built a new life. I was a dreamer , a day dreamer. So that was why i’m in love with the second guy. I knew him since August 23rd 2007, thought he just my friend then suddenly 2 years after my first guy, i fall over him (the second guy.) he was nice, kind, cool and smart. He was so kind with me, i thought he liked me… but it jus my blind optimism and so over reacted with how he treated me.
Like i said, i was a dreamer i wish i lived in fairytale. The place where i could have and i could reach everything i want just in a blink. I was wrong! Life is harder than fairy tale, even hardest than breathing. The case close when he said “take your own life.” I wake up from my dream, then see everything that i used to denied, i swallowed every words i said. “i told them i loves you (my friends) and that’s the truth.” That was what i tell myself. I was down, a friend taught me for keep strong. “you may lose today, but it doesn’t mean you will lose forever. Love is a battle field, take your sworn and then fighting for your life.”
She supported me till i feel much better. I love the feelings when i’m in love, i had loads of happy feelings even when i was in a bad day. Love taught me for respect people’s heart and taught me for grow stronger when i was down, taught me for make a story of myself, and love also taught me for let go something that wasn’t mean to be mine.
In the end of your story, love is always good… it is not love that makes you blind, it is not love that brings you down. It is the way you choosed for control your love, try to lived it and make a choice, say that you love her NOW or NEVER. Perhaps my love story wouldn’t be good and easy, but it will be interesting, because on my way to find someone who will putt a ring on my middle finger, there is a laughed, smiled, and cried until the day i have that ring. When the day is come, i’ll no longer be a pathetic, vain and insecure girl.
Laughed when you want to, cry when you want to. Smiled as much as you can if it will make you feel happy, make people surround you feel bless because they have you around. Cherish your life because it only happen once, there’s no way to forward it or repeat it. Not even delete it, so have fun and good luck!
Dear Diary
My middle finger, no body’s gonna put a ring on it. These aren’t a depressing words i expressed. Each time i look at my self in the mirror and i realized no one gonna love you nor like you! You should consider yourself for stop dying and begging for a fairytale that ain’t gonna happen in your life, because there’s no way to make it.
I should just open my eyes and face the truth. If i would someday and if my destiny was wroten to be single forever, i’ll take it because i know perhaps it is a good way or even a better way to enjoy and appriciate my life.
Some people in the out side might say “everyone have their own soulmates, the one that you could share everything with.” They’re right! Really. But don’t forget to remember, life is not exactlyvin our hands. Who the H-E-L-L knows what will happen to you and your “soulmate” a second after you have each other?
Just don’t and never be influence with my blog, because you and i absolutely have different life, thought, feelings and we also have different way to express our passion. Even if we have “almost” same love story, i mean if we’re single we both have different reason.
My mom told me “don’t be rush with things that you doing now, just let it flow and it will find a place where it should be. But also don’t forget to watched it out and sometime you may control it, when things start go out of track.” Those words are too much and may be too heavy, if we listened or read it for the first time. Just believe me you’ll understand with time. That’s true!
Probably love isn’t coming yet in my life because i’m still too young for understand what it is and still too young for feel it. An old song that still catchy in my ears is “First Love” by Nikka Costa, hahah yeah that’s kinda ridiculous because in above i wrote i won’t have a special ring on my middle finger.
Yeah it is, but it wasn’t mean that i never or i couldn’t falling in love right? I had it, i fell twice and the last, it really and apparently enough for break and torn my heart into pieces. Hahahah God bless me because it only and still only happened twice. So far, i could handle it.
I’m going to tell you how stupid i was! I fell with someone who already has a relationship with someone else. Thanks a lot the pain i felt was only goes along 6 months. I felt sorry about his girlfriend, instead i decided to stay away from their life, keep up everything that happened between me and him along 6 months, and built a new life. I was a dreamer , a day dreamer. So that was why i’m in love with the second guy. I knew him since August 23rd 2007, thought he just my friend then suddenly 2 years after my first guy, i fall over him (the second guy.) he was nice, kind, cool and smart. He was so kind with me, i thought he liked me… but it jus my blind optimism and so over reacted with how he treated me.
Like i said, i was a dreamer i wish i lived in fairytale. The place where i could have and i could reach everything i want just in a blink. I was wrong! Life is harder than fairy tale, even hardest than breathing. The case close when he said “take your own life.” I wake up from my dream, then see everything that i used to denied, i swallowed every words i said. “i told them i loves you (my friends) and that’s the truth.” That was what i tell myself. I was down, a friend taught me for keep strong. “you may lose today, but it doesn’t mean you will lose forever. Love is a battle field, take your sworn and then fighting for your life.”
She supported me till i feel much better. I love the feelings when i’m in love, i had loads of happy feelings even when i was in a bad day. Love taught me for respect people’s heart and taught me for grow stronger when i was down, taught me for make a story of myself, and love also taught me for let go something that wasn’t mean to be mine.
In the end of your story, love is always good… it is not love that makes you blind, it is not love that brings you down. It is the way you choosed for control your love, try to lived it and make a choice, say that you love her NOW or NEVER. Perhaps my love story wouldn’t be good and easy, but it will be interesting, because on my way to find someone who will putt a ring on my middle finger, there is a laughed, smiled, and cried until the day i have that ring. When the day is come, i’ll no longer be a pathetic, vain and insecure girl.
Laughed when you want to, cry when you want to. Smiled as much as you can if it will make you feel happy, make people surround you feel bless because they have you around. Cherish your life because it only happen once, there’s no way to forward it or repeat it. Not even delete it, so have fun and good luck!
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